6 years ago I stood sick, ridden with headache after headache. On medication for insulin resistance, depression, anxiety and not to mention the medication I took and ran out of for migraines each month. I was tired all the time. I was not the mother I wanted to be. I decided to walk into a weight watchers meeting. A year later I had lost 50lbs and a year after that an additional 30. Since then have I not only learned how to eat right, but have accomplished several physical goals of complete 5 half marathons, numberous 5k, climbing Pikes Peak, completing a metric century. (Below see my before and after picture)
I stay active but food continues to be my main struggle. The scale became my idol and how I felt about myself went up and down with it. Feeling like I have been doing everything "right" but yet gaining 30lbs back, I have been ridden with fear that all those health problems will just return and it is out of my control.
Since picking up the made to crave book I have been filled with a sense of empowerment.
I have realized that I do have my own orange Monster taunting me and lying to me and I do give into emotional eating.
Yesterday after a success of reciting a bible verse 1Cor 10:23, Everything is permissible (to me) but not everything is beneficial (to me) and asking for Gods help I was able to overcome a craving, a craving of a large chocolate Lava cake I might add. Only hours later overeating more than I have in month. All the while making a choice to deny God and chose food. I want to be different, I want to be strong, I want to be strong in body, mind and spirit. Not for me but for God so I can be who he needs me to be while I am here on earth. I am powerless to do this on my own, but am empowered through Christ. Already through our bible verse of the week, and using Verse Mapping,(http://heatherbleier.com/?s=verse+mapping)....Love it.
I have identified that my true CRAVING is not food but yet security that I can only find in Gods arms. Rest that I can only find in his house. When crave food and it is not beneficial for me, I will take that as a warning sign that I need to find rest in HIM not food. And such empowerment in the FACT that I CAN CRY to him and he DOES here me, I just have to be willing to admit and ask. Psalms 5;1-3.
To learn more about the Made to Crave Bible Study that is empowering me on this journey, follow the following link.
