True Love

As think about Valentines Day and the true meaning of LOVE, I am brought back to the verses I chose to be read at my Wedding and the Bible.

Recently attending a service, or maybe even something my child shared with me they had learned at church, it was suggested to read the verses I listed below but when the word LOVE was, insert your name.

It really puts a new meaning on if I or YOU really know what true love is. To be more Christ like in my thinking, I have decided to evaluate how I stand with my walk with LOVE. By putting my name in this verse. Because I firmly believe in the verse that start this out, "But have not love, I gain nothing."

Also with this think about are you truely loving the ones you should be showing this TRUE love to. For me it is easier with the kids but harder with the husband, Easier with when my children were younger but harder when they push the limits.

1 Corinthians 13 3-7
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.



(Laura) is patient, (Laura) is kind.
(Laura) does not envy, (Laura) does not boast,
(Laura) is not proud.
(Laura) is not rude, (Laura) is not self-seeking,
(Laura) is not easily angered, (Laura) keeps no record of wrongs.
(Laura) does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
(Laura) always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

What I am going to try to take from this, is before responding to the people I LOVE, I will first evaluate if I am responding like above.

Pondering.

Today has been a day of reflection. A struggle of a day really but ended on a good note.

New Goals: Be thrifty with my $ by price matching and coupon. Got my coupons cut and ready. : ) Plan to get them organized soon. found several helpful sites. www.cellfire.com and of course www.kroger.com

Gardening, going to be focus on gardening, start a compost.
http://thehappyhousewife.com/frugal-living/diy-compost-bin/

Also read the bible throughout the day and came to a few verses,

James 1;5 If any one of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who give generously to all without finding fault.

From this I would like to focus on being less critical and lifting my husband and children up. Focus on me more when it comes to my feelings of anxiety and discontent.

James 1:5 Perserverance must finish its work so that you be mature and complete not lackign in anything.

From this one I reflected on the importance of finishing what you start and not giving up with knowing in the end it will build you up. Also passing this on to your children. Finish what you start and buck up and don't give up.

Proverbs 24:26 An honest answer is liek a kiss on the lips

this spoke to me as I enjoying being around people who are honest. Who tell you what you are thinking but also allow you to think freely as well. nothing causing me more anxiety that someone whom you can not trust.

Lemon Basil Alfredo Pasta

1 T Olive Oil

1.5 lb Chicken Breast

2 Lemons

Basil Dried)

3 Garlic Cloves

2/3 Chicken Broth or 2/3 cup water and 1 tsp of chicken boullion

Salt and Pepper To taste



1 lbs pasta of your choice, whole wheat



Aspargus (as much or as little as you want)

1 can evorated milk

1/2 Parmesan Cheese (Light)



Put water on to boil for pasta



Cook Chicken over medium heat in olive oil, season with basil, salt, pepper and 1 garlic clove. Squeeze onehalf lemon over it. When almost cooked through, add chicken broth, rest of lemon juice and zest of entire lemon add aspargus on top and cover. Simmer about 10 minutes.



Cook pasta according to directions of box.



Add the milk, 1/2 paremesan cheese, a little more basil, rest of garlic and salt and pepper to taste. Stir in cooked pasta.



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Popcorn Snacks

All recipes call for 94% Popcorn Microwave Versions

Parkay Spray Butter



Spicy-Combine 15 Parkay Spray Butter with about 2 tsp frank red hot sauce, 1/2 teaspoon chili powder and a sprinkle of red pepper, Alternate Popcorn and Mix, toss with hands



Pizza Popcorn-Spray wtih Parkay Spray, 2 TB Parmesian Cheese light, Italian Seasoning (I use the one from Walmart Bottom Shelf) and Garlic Powder



Sweet and Salty-Spray Butter, Cinnamon and a 2 tsp of brown sugar.

Defy Gravity

So the last 3 months have been a real emotional rollar coaster. And with that an emotional eating spree. I have managed to accumulate 13lbs, since October. I am very frustrated but today is a new day and I have managed to get my eating in order.

My new years resolution is to Defy Gravity, not let my emotions or anything else control me or bring me down to the ground. Gonna let my wings fly. I want to love without fear and know that God is in control. I want my husband to feel my unconditional love and to enjoy my children to the fullest. And I want to continue to put my health first.

When I eat like crap, I feel like crap. When I eat good, I feel good. When I exercise my headaches and anxiety disappear.

Positive:

1)First an exciting new is that I completed my 5k on Jan. with a time of 33minutes. : )
2)I also have found a couple.
2 secret weapons-

Brainbrew Tea -www.teapots4u.com

Awesome Hot Chocolate Recipe

2 Tb Cocoa
2 tb Bulk Splenda
1 Cup FF Milk
Splash of Vanilla

To change up taste, you can use Almond or Peppermint Extract instead..maybe even orange.

104 Calories
or

3 Points.

3-Got my new Tennis Shoes and my training schedule for the mini


4.Today I am going to a spin class.


So goodbye 168.8lbs.-

Evil named Anxiety

Lets face it...I have been struggling for the past several months. I am feeling in limbo land. I have been questing who I am, my faith....I guess you would call it a midlife crisis. But what I recently relized above everything else is I was allowing Evil to guide me and seep into my thoughts. I would like to name this evil Depression. I have struggled with Depression since my teen years. I usually shake it off and over come, replacing happy thoughts with negative thoughts but then there are things that I can't just brush off or make go away. Some people see this behavior as controling. I have routines for everything from morning to night...routines to eat right, routines to stay in shape, routines to keep my house clean. These rouitnes or rituals I set up are to keep me on top of things..because recently, I realized I am not Depressed..probably never have been but rather have deep rooted Anxiety that causes me to get down if I feel overwhelmed and or can change something in my life. Usually to fight anxiety, I look at what caused me to get overwhelmed in the first place and set up a routine or a way to do things differently in the future. The problem is when you live with 4 other people, one an adult themselves you can't force them to always go along with your thoughts or ideas. Therefore, Anxiety prevails. Oh by the way....I am a deep things therefore if I come to a solution for something, it is deeply thoughout out and planned...no impulse here..so once I have something thought up..I am a little rigid in out it is going to play out..either way.

So back to the faith questing situation. Well what it really boiled down too is that most of my life I have made decision based on what I felt was right at the time. What was going to give me and my family the best life possible, not always what I wanted to do or felt emtionally what I wanted to do. I just ignored my emotions. Well one of the things I questioned was my believe in God. Every possible doubt I had seeped into my mind. Well recently instead of fighting God I have been researching all my doubts. And the more I read the bible and study the more peace I feel. Which since I am paying attention to my emotions more, is a clear sign to me that God is my father who love me and bring me much peace. Also I struggled with why I was feeling so much strive and pain in my relationshihps in life. And the truth is God made a perfect world and gave us free will. Which means life is not going to be perfect..because quite frankly people screw up..but by trying to follow what God wants for us we can feel a little of that perfection, peace and love.

Also my health has not been what it needs to be..I have gained about 10lbs. My promise to myself is to put my health first..body, mind and spirit. starting today.

advice for love in tune

Honesty by Rodney Atkins:

honesty, sincerity, tenderness and trust
a little less time for the rest of the world
and more for the 2 of us.
kisses each morning, i love yous at night

Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice
be a best friend, tell the trust, and overuse I love you
go to work, do your best, don't your outsmart common sents
don't let your praying knees get crazy
love like crazy